March 12, 2009

Smart decisions stink sometimes

Sometimes what I know is right,
I wish some how were wrong
I wish the cons outweighed the pros
I wish this chapter would just close
I know what the right decision is
I know what we have to do yet still
all I want to do is cry

I wish this decision were not mine
I once heard saomeone say
that in times like this it may,
seem hard or rough but it's on those days
you build muscles deep inside
I did not ask to be made strong
but I guess thats not my choice

I know it may seem trivial
I wish I didn't care
I wish I could just brush it off,
but still it's just not fair
I know that change is necessary
but quite frankly right now it stinks
Why can't things just go as planned
Why can't they stay the same
I guess it's just the way life goes

I know what i need to do
I will put my trust in God
and know he's in control
He is breaking me down
and making me strong
he's purifying my heart
Maybe I'm not ready and
God knows more than I
I will have to hand over the wheel
and let him take me for a ride
Although I know it's hard
he doesn't need my help
I'll choose to let him be God
and I will be just me
I hope that I can be my best and
handle this with class
I want to be a woman of God and
I pray I pass this test.